Ok it's only been a few days and I'm already sad since no one's following me. Why should it matter anyway? I'm on here for myself really - Oprah always says to journal and I've never really done that. I like writing (writing a few books, but always tend to get that writers block and stop) so this IS rather refreshing if I think about it. Why do I "need" to be followed. I have my cool friend who read (at least the first two days) and that should be enough. I keep hoping that a stranger will come on too and read. Who will find me on here anyway? So I'm going to just keep on writing for myself and about these strangers who don't seem to be giving me much advice yet. Maybe I should realize that truthfully (unlike myself) maybe there are no real americans who care. I mean really, why should a stranger reach out and help me? I've always believed everyone has some motive deep down. If they're not getting something out of it, why would they want to help me? And I'm asking men since women don't ususally have opportunities to reach out and knowing men, they're going to only help me if they're attracted and maybe they're going to also want sex (which will NOT happen) and once they realize that, I'll be out the door, LOL (shit)
Ok, today is a depressing one :(
But I'm going to pray and allow the Lord to fill me back up with hope and a dream! Besides, I am an optimistic type, so why should I let this bother me. It's not like I'm not working at all :)
See - Just made myself smile already
Goodnite -
Yana - Editor
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