Day 3

Saturday's here and don't have to fly (yippie) and I'm still on the dating site trying to find that one person that will lead me to a great job! Ok, I don't want a job, I want a career - and I "believe" it's around the corner. I can't imagine flying for years (how do they do that?) I think I'd have to bail out of the plane if I continue with this crazy life. I love the passengers, it's the co-workers I get stuck with at times that's awful. Talk about some miserable people! So I'll keep working for my passengers and hoping to get this break I seek. In the meantime, my friend is following me (or at least I think she is) and I'll keep writing away in hopes that maybe on here that person shows up who can make a great suggestion or even want me to work with them in some fantastic position! (am I dreaming again?) I don't know - I wish I would have taken those risks when I was young like working in sales. My mom use to tell me never to do that because "one must get a paycheck to live" and how could I EVER live on commission? Well when you're young, you don't worry about those things and probably by now I'd be a millionaire! (or at least I'd be making a decent living) and she already gave the the biggest gift which was to save, save and save! All of us kids are good with our money and all of us save, so I can't even imagine how well off I'd be today if I would have followed my dreams. So today I'm thinking about my invention - YES - my invention. Here we go again, I have had this wonderful idea now in my mind for 30 years (pituful right) and haven't done anything with it. I have my friend who can make it for me on line and trust me, I've been on him for months and months, but this is an individual who is not motivated in my project or anything it seems in life. I have this awful feeling he may never get it accomplished, so do I just forget about that dream too? I can't! I've thought that maybe I should just try to find someone else, but who? (why does this have to be so difficult) -

Ok so then I think about Oprah who says to follow your passion and do that for a living! Well other than working as a greeter at Walmart who will pay me to hug them? LOL
I love to hug! I love to love people! I'm GREAT at my job because I love my passengers! I can disharm the worst passenger, make them smile and even laugh! That's a gift right? But how do I take that gift and make a million from it? If ONE PERSON could just answer that one, boy would I love them forever! -

So I'm left again with nothing but ideas and my ideas take money to make money. I even have a sister who is struggling so together we're two messes it seems. I come up with great business ideas (like starting a wine bar which is a 'tasting bar') and also selling bottles, but you need so much money to start any business let alone one that also takes getting a license for. Who do I know who can invest in us? Oh yea, no one, LOL that's who -

When I got to finally spend a few days with my brother in Miami Beach (yes, I have a brother who lives in paradise) and he drives me by those multi-million dollar homes, and high rises, all I can think is, what on earth do these people do to live this way? My mind thinks they're all drug dealers, but I'm sure even in that area there must be competition, LOL - but I can't give up the hope - without hope we die - damn

So today I'm sitting here, wondering, dreaming, thinking, chatting and now typing hoping something big will pop into my mind or someone will pop into my life and give me a hand. Am I living in a dream world thinking there really could be one person out there who is wealthy and would be willing to reach out to me? I'm not a person they'd be gambling on, because I know I have high work ethics, a great heart and am a hard worker, but I'm NOT related and would or could there really be someone like me out there who will just do it out of love and kindness? That IS the Big Question and we'll continue to see - I'm not a gambler, but I'm betting on the heart! All I need is ONE GOOD PERSON - and this person will take time maybe to find, but when I do! (smiling)

Ah the possibilities - the dreams and hopes -
I have a little girl that keeps me believing - and I hope if anyone starts reading this I will also spur them on. I love giving so I hope people will find me on here and I can give that if nothing else to them. I "DO KNOW" the power of giving and the blessings that come from it, so I hope they find me so I can do just that - give to the reader!!!!!

This is not wasted thoughts! FIND ME PEOPLE

:)


Yana - Editor