Missed typing yesterday since I got caught up in the drama (or runors) at work, and then I come on here only to post my blog and it didn't go thru (what's up with that?) so I took a deep breath and left the computer - and now I'll just write something short "to feel better". I don't know if you're reading Tracy or my new friend from the singles site, but if you are, I'll try not to bore either of you. I had heard we would be losing our jobs in January and I felt sorry for myself since I just returned this summer - but today I see they're offering leaves for 4 months (which I won't take) but thank God that's all (or at least I hope that's all) it is.
I'm coming to realize that looking on a dating site of all places to find my mentor is HARD WORK. Here I'm getting these extra days off and "should be" studying for my test in January, but I'm spending literally 12 or more hours a day reaching out to total strangers getting no where and then I have to remind myself, "ok I'm looking for ONE GOOD AMERICAN" and more than that actually (since there are many good ones) I need one who is in a place to actually help me out, which (esp in this economy) is even harder to find. Of course this is work and will take patience and time right? But I think the reason I'm a little disheartened is because I'm not even getting much in the way of advice though today a very nice guy I've been chatting with said I'd be great to work for a hotel! Being the person who puts together parties and weddings. I agree, but in Michigan that's not a good idea, but it is a great thought for sure since I love people and they love me. Now to figure out how I could take great ideas like that and make them happen??? still baffeling, LOL
In the meantime, I'm helping out a great friend that just came back to my life. She is doing well but we still have a way to go (therapy). Yes, I'm good at helping others in that arena too but unless I have a degree who will hire me to make money? no one, so I just give assistance thru 12 step work (but at least I save them money if nothing else) -
Also, I'll be helping my good friend with a home soon. She is coming from Alaska to have major surgery (back) and I will help her get on her feet. This may happen in January and she may be here a year - but I don't mind. That's what real friends do and her family turned their backs on her (can you imagine?) again, BLOOD means nothing - she lost her money so her family "set her free" well you know what? I love her and never wanted a thing from her and now I can help her again and I will! :)
So with that - I feel I'm on the right path and will end - hoping tomorrow someone will also help even me :)
BELIEVING (need to get a tatoo with that on it I think)
Yana - Editor
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