Day ONE - Nov 12, 2009

Ok well here I go - Day one - and so much to say so if you like reading, you've found the right "home" to come to. Lets go on this journey together ok (whoever you are). I watched the movie Julie/Julia this past weekend which gave me the idea to come on here and find that ONE person in America who "like me" has a heart of gold and would love to reach out, guide, mentor or perhaps even open a door for me to walk thru so I can become "that American" dream which I always thought was a person who never had worry! With God alone, I can have His peace, let me make that clear and if you'd like to know more about the Lord, I am your person to come to and I do love helping others and would be more than happy to help you find Him. I know myself I looked for years, and always "wanted to believe" but guess what? It's true, He IS ALIVE and He will reveal Himself to you on a personal level (I know, mind blowing isn't it?) but it's true and it seems that it's people like me "greeks" or those wonderful catholics who have been denied this truth and how to attain a one on one access to Him (though we all believe in the trinity since our churches preach that). Amazing how close we are, but how lost we can still be - so if it's God you seek, please write me ok? I LOVE sharing how you can know 100% He's here and alive and how you can not only find Him for today, but know in your heart that you WILL be in heaven with Him one day too! Ok, now back to me and this idea I got from the movie (which by the way, I found the girl Julie on facebook and sent her a note yesterday, but she's not responded yet) am I surprised? - Oh well, it's ok, this is what I've encountered my entire life actually, people are nice to a degree, but to really care, really extend a hand as I do, well. . . I'm sad to say, I've not found that. Don't get me wrong, I do have a couple of GREAT and yes, giving friends - esp my friend Joyce and I know she'd help me if she could, but she's not in a position to do so, but she does have a heart of gold and she's always been there for me and always blesses me with gifts, taking me to eat out and things like that! I don't want a thing from her (I truly love her purely) but she's just a nice person, and I know if I could bless others financially (which is the goal here) I would. I try to bless EVERYONE I encounter each day. I'm a flight attendant, so imagine how many hugs I give in a day! LOTS - and I love it. What's really heartbreaking is when I hear over and over how much it meant to that person who perhaps hadn't received one in years :(
Talk about breaking ones heart right? But it's so true and I don't get it considering most Americans do have relatives - so where are the hugs for these wonderful people? Maybe I can touch others in ways even I've not realized by doing this blog - maybe I will stir your heart if anything sounds like you and you'll want to change a little, give a little and more than that, LOVE a little! I'm about LOVE. I believe it's a gift from God no doubt, but it's something we can all chose as well. I have this way about me that honestly even I don't understand, I just LOVE (purely) and I don't even know if I can explain it, but I'll give you an example - I've been abused (yep) by my ex husband over and over since our divorce 11 years ago, and don't get me wrong, when he does something evil (yep evil) I get angry, but here's the odd part, it leaves me very quickly and again my heart fills with Love for him. I do the same with everyone! You can hurt my feelings and sure, I cry and take it to heart, but I do NOT ever experience anger which can lead to hate (what's that?) I've no clue because I can't seem to feel that emotion I hear so much about. It's not in me, and I believe for whatever reason God has "gifted" me with a pureheart (something I've not found in another human being yet, but believe Michael Jackson truly had it) and I've never experienced hate. So with that, let my story be told and I'll start it later or tomorrow (I don't want to over type and bore anyone) and I do hope I get followers and I also hope my sharing will bless you! This is about giving still for me and like I said, I may not be able to yet give financially as I wish, I can still give in so many other ways as I do each day I go outside, I can Hug you (even this way thru the computer), I can share, I can encourage, I can lead, teach, preach, mentor and be there for you! I am doing this with a self'less' heart ok? This is NOT about me just finding that one other good hearted person who is able to assist me finally find a real career (though it's one of the goals for sure) it's not the only reason I'm here - I put you before myself my love and with time if you hang around, I pray you see one thing alone - my heart :)
Hugs to everyone! And as you know, I'm greek and we are 'a loving people' so as I say to my passengers on the planes, "today you too are greek" which means today we ALL have hearts of gold, lets all work on blessing someone else in ways we can, starting with a hug!
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Yana



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